Sick or not sick? That is the question...

So back in December I was hospitalized for a few days with some fancy named thing called ITP (Idiopathic Thrombocytopenia). In simple terms it's basically severely low platelet levels. Well the last time I had it I noticed a few symptoms after the fact, one of which was a massive bruise that I don't remember getting. Well I just found one on my butt and I have no idea how it got there. And then I remembered that this thing was triggered by my getting sick over Thanksgiving... And I got sick last week. So I will be getting some blood work done tomorrow just to make sure I'm not ITP sick again. Damn it. I was really hoping I'd never have to deal with this again... Please pray that I'm not sick again.

Please don't be sick...

Please don't be sick...

What haven't I had since I was 8?

Answer: An ear infection. Yes. At age 26, the pestering annoyance has returned. Searing pain and all. This cold that I've had since Tuesday has become more than a nuisance, it has literally become a pain. Painful especially after jumping around in a jumpy castle with a bunch of 6 year olds... And of course the doctor's office is closed because of the holiday. Wonderful.

But as I suffered in agony while watching the over the top (and very loud, I might add) fireworks display, listening to the numerous "Fire in the hole!" calls from the youngins, something else bothered me... I noticed the couples around me holding each other for warmth. Now this act alone didn't bother me so much as seeing them made me realize that I've never actually had that. As a hopeless romantic, I found myself a little jealous and bitter over an act so easy and natural. Then I also found myself remembering the "perfect guy" list I made when I was 9. Even at 9 I knew what I wanted, and to be honest after finding that list a few weeks ago, not a lot has changed. But for some reason I've settled for less. Maybe I should take a hint from my 9 year old self and resume the search for the guy I so aptly described...

:)

The search is on.

Yard work is a pain in my you know what...

So the neighbor and I made a deal a few months back when my grass got so long it reached mid-calf and he got tired of looking at it... I would let him borrow my lawn mower and he would mow my lawn. Sounds like an airtight deal to me. Well, it's kind of collapsed and I'm a little annoyed by his empty promises and false hopes. Could be a result of his crack habit, but that's beside the point... I will give him props, however, for at least mowing my front yard yesterday, and attempting to spell his name in the back yard until it ran out of gas (I'm assuming, anyway). He also left both my gates WIDE OPEN and the mower just sitting in the middle of the yard for everyone to see. Oh and all this was after he decided to kidnap my lawnmower for a week leaving me wondering if he hawked it to pay for his many addictions. Nice. Anyway, the point is, I now have to mow my own yard. Not a big fan of this arrangement. I absolutely despise yard work. That is the sole reason I have yet to buy my own house, or even live in one (one I had to take care of, anyway) until now. Well, that's not the only reason, but it has definitely been a deterring factor. So here I sit, waiting for a respectable hour to fire up the beast. Oh, and if you thought for a second that my lawn looks anywhere near as nice as the picture above, you obviously haven't been paying attention to the dripping disdain found in this post regarding any and all forms of yard work... or my lack of OCD. The yard gets mowed. That's it.
 Anyway, while I wait for the dubious bewitching hour, I've decided to restore my iphone to it's original settings. It's been acting a little funky lately, so I figured I'd give it a shot. I'm probably erasing my lifeline to the outside world, but they wouldn't give you the option to restore if it wasn't legit, right? Right?? Wrong!!! I just checked, and I lost all my contacts!! Did I not save them to my computer?!?!?! Shit... But I'm not panicking... I'm still waiting to see if my backup settings will restore my reason for existing... omg what have I done......

Restore in progress.....


Restore in progress.....


God, damn it! How long is this going to take?!?! Oh... well apparently 3 more minutes according to the itunes pop-up window...

Insert elevator music here.

The anticipation is killing me!!! Will I be sending out the annoying request for phone numbers?? Looks like resounding no... The iphone is up and running with all contacts intact. Thank you baby Jesus.

And it looks like I won't be mowing the lawn after all. My assumption of the neighbor running out of gas was fully confirmed when I went to the shed and found the gas can completely empty. I'd weed-wak if I knew where it was... but knowing myself, I probably wouldn't even then.

Hope everyone has an enjoyable holiday. I'm off to the dog park with the pup. :)

Happy Independence Day!!

Happy 4th of July Independence Day!! I was recently corrected that Independence Day is the holiday, 4th of July is just a date (thanks Amelia and Leland...) which got me thinking how lazy we've gotten with a few other holidays. The obvious example that came to mind was X-mas (a.k.a. Christmas), then I couldn't think of any other ones and moved on. ;-) Needless to say, I hope everyone enjoys the holiday weekend. I know my neighbors have started celebrating already, lighting the fireworks I'm sure they bought with their rent money. I just love how the anticipation of lighting things on fire brings out the best in people... Speaking of best in people, I'm looking forward to, or maybe I'm dreading, witnessing a coworker sport a speedo tomorrow. Should be entertaining, at least. I do believe intoxication may be a necessity tomorrow...

And can I just say, I love the incredible pleasure that is Real Simple. I just can't say how happy it makes me to flip through the pages and see how I can organize my life or decorate my living room so much better than I have. Sometimes it makes me wonder if people actually have homes like the ones pictured and in what world those people live...

An update on my incredibly difficult endeavor to not shop? Success so far. Although I am still seeing a few charges that are still clearing the bank, and I did receive a few things in the mail yesterday that I ordered prior to this necessary shopping abstinence... On principle I am returning them. And because they didn't fit... I've also been throwing away and deleting all the "40% off!" and "Sale! One day only!" advertisements. I seriously get like 6 a day. As long as I don't look at them, I'm fine. As long as I stay oblivious to the savings... I sound like Becky Bloomwood. Honestly, I'm really not that bad. This was just a temporary lapse in financial judgment... I'll get back on track and be fine soon.

Speaking of shopping, has anyone seen these booty pop panties?? There are pads in the butt. Wow...

The work situation continues to destroy my decision making skills. I talked to my boss yesterday and found out that if I took the lateral, I'd delay my promotion another 6 months, so next July instead of January. And with my incredibly strong desire to get out of this town sooner rather than later, that was pretty much the final straw. I feel like I'm disappointing those coworkers that helped me in the fight, on top of the fact that now I've delayed the hiring of someone else in that position and prevented someone else from getting my position, had I taken the job, but I just can't in good conscience take this step into what seems like a black hole. As I waited to watch Eclipse for the third time in 2 days, I saw the preview for Eat Pray Love and I found myself longing to just coast for a while. Uproot, move somewhere I've never been, get a job as a bartender, waitress, or candy maker and just not think for a while. That just sounds divine...

Anyway, A Walk in the Clouds, undoubtedly one of Keanu Reeves' worst displays of acting, is on for the second time tonight. I think that's a sign that I should finish the laundry and hit the sack.

Nighty night.

S

Spasticity

I am a total spaz. I can't seem to make a decision and stick to it. Driving myself crazy.

That is all.

S